Have you Ever?

Have you ever been walking some place or were driving and thought what if there was a horrible accident right now and I didn't survive, or worse if I barely survived... I got to think what would happen. Who miss me, who would get here first? Who would blame who? how long would it take for the ambulances to get here? How much would that Cost? How would my Parents Feel? How would Daniel feel? I sometimes wonder if other people have these morbid thoughts of what if situations....

Ok I've never been one to obsess over Weight

But Earlier Today I found a website...http://www.loseit.com/ but I'm now obsessed with what I eat How many calories and how long a work out how many calories I burn... This is probably a good thing! If you've ever been on a diet how long were you on it? Did it work? and would you do it again?

I had a weird Dream Last night

Okay, I have alot of weird dream, but the ones that really disturb be are one's that relate to my fears of my Future becoming my past... Okay I guess that not knowing what's going on right now in my life and what has happened, this wouldn't make any sense, so I will briefly explain before tell you about the Dream...


First Off, I am currently dating/engaged to The Greatest Guy, For all intensive purposes Lets call him Daniel. Daniel is So Good to me, He Treats me Like a man should treat a Women, and I love him soo much...


and then there's my ex, whom we shall call Jack, just because if you add a 3  letter word to end of it suits his personality, lol. Anyway Jack was an very Abusive boyfriend, whom to this Day refuses to believe that he was. As a future Counselor i can see why he was and why he thinks he treated me right, but I have news for him, he didn't!


Ok back to my weird dream...
I was with Daniel, and were on this alien Planet! and well we were in like this wet suit that make us look like aliens... the only way we could get back to earth was to go into this "the Hills have eye's" type shack, well it had an upstairs which i guess constitutes a house... any there was this big Alien in the shower and and the only way that he would help us is if i slept with him... anyway i proceeded to lock the door and my  fiancee out of the room with me and this huge monster, I hated the Fact that my Fiancee had nothing to say about, and would just let me {this is something Jack would of done} (in real life Daniel would probably rather us die than that, idk tho, this is just what i assume his answer would be, because I haven't asked him) not to mention the monster favored my ex (Gags) well he tried but it didn't work because his equipment was too big (that is far from reality, but I'm Glad my mind stopped it from progressing... However Angry that it thought Of Jack *gags*)
and that's when i was abruptly awoken by my alarm clock i was running late =(

My Story a Cautionary Tale

First off this Blog is about me, whoever i am, and about what ever i feel like getting off my chest, so im not looking for any accomplishment or wow, she's been through that! Or to talk smack about anyone! This is just the real me, no acts no gimmicks... This Blog May Not be Appropriate for all audiences! So Please read with Caution, and I'm not going to pretend that my life has been the worst, or the best... I'm simply me.